received your manuscript while on the road ... and ensconced myself in a hotel room one Saturday... Reading
the entire manuscript in one day with no contact with other people may have
influenced my interaction with the subject and events you share with your
became totally immersed in the book, to the point that I felt pulled in to the
space and emotions you were sharing.
At least, as "pulled in" as one can get who has not experienced the
death of a spouse. I do not
presume that I can fully relate to that place of darkness reserved for those
who have walked your path. I can
only resonant with the similarities you describe with my own dark night of the
reading your poems and journal entries, I felt that the depth in which you
journeyed was the abyss within the cave that most of us skim past lest we lose
our footing and fall into insanity.
But you, Martina, chose to free-fall into the abyss and, more
importantly, found Love there to bring you back into the light.
journey was a dark, dank, lonely, long, unpleasant period of time that many
would shove into the background of their lives once they were on solid ground
but, again, you are displaying your courage by sharing your experience not to
just a few but to the world in the form of a book.
I was reading Invisible Connections,
I became more and more uncomfortable with the depths of emotions which were
being stirred within me. But, as I continued, I became aware that I was walking
beside you as you shared your sadness, despair, fear, confusion and the many
unanswered questions. You were
giving me a gift - the gift of compassion. Through your words, you taught me how to be a companion to
those who have walked this same journey.
I returned home after reading your manuscript, X visited for a week. Many times over the past few months, I
have been at a loss as to how to be with her. This time, I let go.
I let go of the need for answers.
I let go of "shoulds." In
this surrender, Love emerged. A
Love that accepts All There Is because It is ALL.
so, once again, Martina, I find myself thanking you. Thank you for sharing your experience through your book so
that we can learn to sit with others dealing with a death of a loved one. Your ability to express such deep
heartfelt emotions through your journal entries and, especially through your
poetry, opened my heart.
believe your book will also prove to be a companion to those who are now
walking through their own dark night of the soul, giving them permission to
express the myriad of emotions emerging at such a time. It is my personal philosophy that those
who travel to their depths are capable of higher summits. You, Martina, are a mountain climber!